i dont have the best relationship with anyone in this house. money is always and issue with my parents. even if i was dying…. really… -_- they have NO IDEA how hard ive been working ever since i got my new job. and they still dont believe a word i say, whatever it’s life. one day i’ll get out of here but i have to settle for this bullshit. honestly they should’ve stayed on their vacation longer….i was doing fine without them…i know how to take care of myself, i know my right from wrong, and only I KNOW how hard i’ve been working. will you guys ever be proud? will you guys ever be pleased? hah only if i had all the money in the world…then they’d be beggin’ on their knees. ill never get the approval from you guys, im tired of proving you wrong….i know if im good enough or not…..i done with your standards…it’s for my own good? fuck it. you don’t know what my own good is.
it's one thing to lose something, but to lose yourself...
could be one of the worse. my mindset has gone off track. things happen. over analyzing. self doubt. me? im changing. maturing? maybe… i need to figure out my wants from my needs. i promised myself that i wouldn’t break, now look what i’ve done. life? it’s only gonna get harder…..
but it’s something i need to overcome. make mistakes, learn from them