No, I'm not going to lose feelings. No, I'm not going to find someone better. No, I'm not going to cheat on you. And no, I'm not going to leave you. I've already made up my mind, I want you and only you. No one else.. Because to me, you're my kind of perfect.
encouraged lovey dovey relationships. Those parents that let you have sleepovers at your boyfriends house, having complete trust that you wouldn’t have sex. Those parents that would love to have your boyfriend come over for dinner. Those parents that wouldn’t trip if they found out you had one, but be excited & happy for you. If only, though.
It just doesn’t feel right, and it feels like something is missing. I have less smiles throughout the day, and less giggles from your stupid jokes. It’s also hard going to sleep, knowing your voice isn’t the last thing I hear before I knock out. Talking to you just makes me look forward to the day. Talking to you completes my day. Without you, my day is nothing.
i wish i could be family oriented. mhmmmm yeah thats the truth. through other people’s eyes, im a nice person…they think of me as having no problems at all, and does really well in school. but in reality, it’s different. im a 19 year old girl, who goes to a community college that still lives under her parent’s roof, under her parent’s rules. Believe it or not, i still have a cerfew. My relationship with my parents isnt the best one, but trust me, i TRY to live up to their standards. it’s been hard, its a struggle. my parent arent any ordinary filipino parents….ive gotten stuck with hard asses. the kind of parent who are on my case everytime i go out, they ask me where im going, who im with, and what im doing. they expect me home at a certain time and of course i follow. They tell me to do my best in school, and when im exceeding, they still dont think it’s enough. i get moderately good grades, i do well than others, i study my butt off, but still nothing….not even an “im proud of you” kind of thing. i now have two jobs, both at minimum wage, its not the best pay, but at least it’s something right?…according to my parents no…they still dont believe that i know what hard work is….. ive told you my story, just the highlights of it..and i ask you this….what’s wrong with me? why is it that in my parent’s eyes, i am STILL not good enough for them. why is all my hard work being ignored….why cant i just have that one moment of glory with them. i bust my ass at school and work, and when i finally get to go out, all of a sudden they get mad saying that im not doing good in school. tell me why they cant talk to me nicely when i dont do anything to them…. so far, because of this, ive taught myself that im just good for nothing and not good enough for anyone…not even myself. which brings me back to the begining of my whole post…i wish i was family oriented. the kind of girl that gets to spend time with her family. the girl who has parents that are actually proud of her……ive been working on it for years…and it still ends up the same….no matter what, im still gonna work hard and do my best in school…not for my parents, but for me. im not being selfish…..just independent.